another day, another scene. [chrissy]

[kade trent.]

This whole getting up at eight am thing was ridiculous. Why should it be mandatory that campers actually have to get up that early and involve themselves in the daily activities? Why not just let them snooze, sleep in until they wanted to, then let them get up and decide what they wanted to do with themselves for the remainder of the day? If Kade were the one writing the rules, that would be how it all went. Summer was supposed to be a time of relaxation when kids could just goof off and do whatever. Well, the kids that didn’t go to camp, it seemed. Kade had never been much of a morning person, usually being more of a night owl and opting to sleep late and stay out until the early hours of the morning. Those habits had come to a screeching halt upon his arrival to Camp Brunswick. Sure, he could still stay up late, but he was expected to be up, and to get the campers in his cabin up at eight am. Kade was probably the more lenient counselor when it came to that, letting the kids in the Yellowstone Cabin have at least a good ten minutes more of sleep than what was really allowed. Sometimes more depending on just how tired he was. He had learned very quickly that the other counselors were strict enforcers of the camp rules, but that was no fun. Kade went about things by just letting the campers do as they wanted and often being a ring leader when it came to mischief. Why not? Just as long as they didn’t get caught, it would all be good.

Cyprus Hall. Where all the meals were served. This place was always jam pack full of campers and counselors a like. When Kade had first came to this camp, he hadn’t known a single soul. The very idea of going to a place where you knew no one else might sound intimidating to some, but Kade wasn’t like that at all. He didn’t need to know people to feel comfortable, and he was good as a loner. Not that he got much of a chance to be a loner here. The other counselors had all been very welcoming. The ones that he had met, at least. Then, there were campers that were close to his own age that he had found it easy to relate to, therefore forming a sort of makeshift friendship for the moment. Kade had really almost dreaded coming to Camp Brunswick, never having been a camp going person himself when he was younger, but now, apart from the whole early rising thing, it wasn’t too bad. Sure, he had to try and be the responsible one at times when he would really like to be on the other side of things, and he was responsible for these campers, but he could handle it. Besides, having people to be in charge of was good for taking his mind off of other matters, providing an easy escape for him from his own mind at times. It isn’t healthy to avoid your problems and keep everything locked so deep down inside that you can hardly feel it yourself, but it was a method that was working for Kade, and he’d keep using it until it didn’t. There was no harm in keeping on the mask, especially when you had a lot that you didn’t want people to see.

This morning, Kade found himself sitting at a table with some guys from the Yellowstone cabin. Counselors were supposed to disperse themselves among the tables, sitting and keeping an eye on the campers to make sure that they were all staying in line. Kade often sat in with these guys because, for one, he knew them the best and they were the ones that were a lot of fun to be around. The troublemakers, it seemed, were all grouped into Yellowstone, and they all shared that common trait of liking to make a lot of noise and make themselves noticed, whether it be in a positive or negative way. This morning, though, they were all fairly quite, having been up that previous night playing host to a party. Parties were against the rules, and counselors were supposed to be watching and crack down on the campers when things like that happened. Kade, however, was the counselor that joined right in with the campers and made sure that their fun wasn’t ruined by other counselors. He sat and listened to the quiet chatter taking place among the guys at the table, not really having a whole lot to contribute to the conversation himself. ”Hey, who keeps taking my fucking toast?” “Would you get over it, man? No one fucking cares about your toast.” That was coming from two of the guys at the far end of the table, one looking like he really believed that the others were taking his toast just to mess with him, the other looking like the one that had taken his toast. ”Hey guys, watch your language,” Kade said, loud enough so that the two would hear him from where he sat. ”Some people don’t appreciate that kind of shit. And give him back his toast.” This caused a few laughs and grins all around the table, and the toast was returned, though Kade wasn’t so sure he’d be willing to eat it after it had been given back. You don’t know what they did to it, but it didn’t seem to bother they guy who had been missing it. Kade shook his head as the boy ate both pieces in about four bites.

After listening to some more meaningless banter between the guys and finishing his breakfast, Kade rose from his seat and took his tray with him, going to scrape it and then place it in the return cart. As they all did every meal. It was just a robotic movement, one that was done within a minute and then Kade turned to leave the hall and go in search of the person that would have his schedule for the day. You would think that he would have it, but Kade, being Kade, didn’t. On his way out the door to go in search of said person, Kade got sidetracked, talking to a few campers that he knew as they sat at their tables. What the hell. It wasn’t like he was in too big of a rush to get started, anyway. His schedule would still be there waiting for him when he got around to it. Besides, the activities wouldn’t start until breakfast was over, and there were still some campers in line to get their trays. Kade was mostly on the listening end as two girls told him about this hike that they had done the day before, but he didn’t mind. It sounded like the girls weren’t all that graceful, having one misadventure after another. Kade grinned and even chuckled here and there as he heard the story. So maybe camp counselor hadn’t been his first choice of summer activities, but it wasn’t turning out too badly either.

[Chrissy Maddison]

Camp. Chrissy had missed it. It was one of those things that she had become acustomed to. I mean, when you go to the same camp every year since you were 13 you have a reason to expect to do it every summer. She knew it was weird, but she had missed getting up at eight. She had missed having the food that wasnt the greatest. But most of all she had missed her little group of friends that she had. You see CHristina had been in Sequoia. They were grouped as the bad girls of the camp. Christina probably could have been in either cabin though. There were times were she would want to go to bed early, and everyone else would be partying. Or where everyone would be wanting to do something, but CHristina was like you guys think about this first. Whats going to happen if were caught. But then there were times when she was like ya, who's got the beer that were not supposed to have. Who wants to go skinny dipping in the lake. Yes she had always been a wild one. She didnt care though, she should be able to let her frusteration with her parents - expecially her dad- out.

Christina had decided to let her campers sleep in alittle. ABout 20 minutes after 8 she woke everyone up. They had been up late playing truth or dare, so she had decided to be nice ot them. Ofcourse she wasnt the only one who let there campers sleep in. The Yellowstone councler let his campers sleep in. Atleast thats what she heard. God, who was the yellowstone councler. She wasnt sure. She hadnt met everyone yet. She didnt know who all the counclers were. Ya it was kinda sad that she didnt, but whatever. Chrisitina looked in the mirror. She thickened her eyeliner. Thats one thing she loved, she always had thick eyeliner. Her mom always said she looked like a raccoon. What the hell was with that. Her mom was just old fashioned, and didnt think that girls needed to wear that much make up. She always said that Chrissy was pretty enough with make up. Christina put a light layer of lipgloss on her lips. She looked at herself in the mirror. She had curled hair, so that it had big loose curls.

Christina walked into Cyrpus Hall about 20 minutes late. She had to stop on her way to the hall. Some girls, who were her campers, had to be stopped before they went to the hall. The one girl was wearing a mini skirt, wear if she bent over you could see her ass, and the other girl had a straplee top, that only covered her boobs. Chrissy couldnt believe how some of her campers dressed. I mean usually Chrissy was pretty cool, but nope, not today. Today wasnt a good day for Christina. Nobody accept her knew why it wasnt a good day. 3 years ago today, little Kaydence Maddison was born. Chrissy couldnt believe she was missing her daughters third birthday. She was so mad. She was very sad. She wouldnt let it show though, because than she would be questioned. Only a couple of her campers knew that she had a daughter. It was going to stay that way to. She finally walked into Cyprus hall. She was going to have a simple breakfast. She decided she waas just going to get a bowl of cereal. She didnt usually eat a big breakfast. I mean she could if she wanted to, but she didnt. She didnt want to get fat, even though she didnt have to worry about that.

Chrissy got her bowl of cereal, and then walked onto the one side of the hall. She smiled at some of the girls in the hall. The girls that she sent back to change walked by her. They gave her a glare, and then kept walking. She wanted so badly to flip them off. That was one of her things. She flipped people off alot. Well not alot, but then they were mad at her she would. That was one of her quatlitys, that her mommy didnt like. She just rolled her eyes at them instead. She kept walking. A couple of younger girls had asked her to sit with them, but she had been planning on sitting with the other counclers. She told the girls that she was alreayd sitting with someone, and then she walked away. She was walking, and not paying attention. She really didnt think anyone was infront of ehr, and her mind was in a different place, when bam! She had ran into someone. O shit, she felt so retarded. She looked up to see who it was. O wow, she knew him. It was Kade, she was going to walk away, but she was now covered in cereal.

[kade trent.]

The more that Kade listened to these two girls talk about their misadventures on the hiking trail, the more he was thinking that he should probably try to stay uninvolved in that activity for as long as it was humanly possible for him to do. Kade was a guy that could definitely hold his own and knew what he was doing, but what happened to these girls sounded disastrous, and it seemed like things that Kade had already experienced in his own mishaps in the past, or were things that he could easily see himself doing. Like mistaking left for right and taking the long trail instead of the short trail. He was nineteen-years-old, but left and right was still a tricky one for him sometimes. The one girl held out her arm to show a bandage that covered a deep gash that she had acquired from taking a nasty fall down a steep bank. The other girl had scratches from green briars visible on her arms and legs. One of them had poison ivy on their foot, and both had some nasty looking sunburns. These were all things that were commonly seen in camps like these, but to think that it had all happened in one day on what was supposed to be an easy hike through the woods, well, that was just a bit discouraging. There were some campers here that complained over the smallest things, but these girls seemed to take all that had happened to them in stride, not even seeming to notice and laughing it all off as they retold their story to Kade. For that, he was glad. Otherwise, he would have lost interest from the beginning and probably would have come off as rude when he made an excuse to stop listening and leave. When the girls finally got to the part where they found their way back into the camp and their story had found an end, Kade did tell them that he was going to go so that they could finish up their breakfast and get a start on their day. With some sarcasm, of course. All three rolled their eyes and Kade turned to leave, once again thinking that he needed to hunt down that schedule.

But, it wasn’t like Kade actually wanted that schedule. It was something that he needed to have, but he didn’t want it. So, without having any real means of wanting this schedule of where he was supposed to be and what he was supposed to be doing, it is understandable that Kade would be easily sidetracked once again. Kade was a stubborn boy, and if he decided that he really wanted something or there was something that he absolutely had to do, nothing would stop him. Today, that just wasn’t the case. After making his way past a few tables, he was flagged down by another few campers. A whole table full, it seemed. These weren’t kids that he knew well, but they were ones that seemed to have taken an interest in him. The girls a more in a more flirtatious way, the boys in a way that they knew if they befriended him, they could get away with anything at this camp. Kade stopped, saying his hellos to the ones that he could remember their names, and then the ones that he did sort of know offered little conversation pieces. Kade went along with it, trying to inch his way toward the door so that he could do what he told the girls he was going to do. Kade was glad that the campers seemed to take to him well and didn’t regard him as some stuck up guy just because he was a counselor and not a camper like themselves, and he was used to having this sort of popularity. This was how it was in high school for him, but in high school he really didn’t have anywhere else that he needed to be during meals, or lunch as it were, like this. But, just because he was used to it didn’t mean that he was all that fond of it. He would much rather just be able to slip out the door unnoticed and to be able to go about doing his own thing without all the attention. He would deal with it, though, just as he always had.

It seemed that he had found a break, and he said his goodbyes to the kids at the table and turned around. Only to have someone else collide with him. At first, Kade really didn’t know what hit him. He hadn’t been thinking that there would be anyone around him to actually run into him, but there they were. Or rather, there she was. It seemed that she had had some cereal, apparently going to find a seat so that she could eat her breakfast. That is until Kade got in her way. His hazel eyes found the face of the girl that had run into him, and he stopped for a moment. He knew that face, and he knew those eyes. Good God, it was Christina Maddison. That name came to him just like that, no having to search for it or recall where he knew her from. That was all quite clear. Kade and Chrissy had been together almost three years ago when her and her family had lived in Seattle, Washington. They started dating, and then before Kade knew it, it was time for them to pick up and move and it was goodbye. Just like that. Kade knew that she had to leave, and he knew from the start that he probably wouldn’t get to keep her for long, but it was just way that she had left that had bothered him for awhile after she had gone. There had been something different about her that day as she told him goodbye, something that wasn’t quite right but Kade couldn’t figure out. After awhile, he had just let it go as her leaving and not wanting to say goodbye and it just being a sad day. There was no reason for him to think any differently. He hadn’t heard anything from or about the girl in three years. Now, she was right there before his eyes, wearing her cereal because she had run into him in the Cyprus Hall of Camp Brunswick. What were the odds.

”Chrissy?” he asked, more out of disbelief that she was really there than for a lack of knowing who she was. Even with the years between this and the last time they had saw one another, Kade would still be able to recognize her anywhere. Even with the cereal. That was making a small smirk come to Kade‘s face. Oh, the jokes and smart remarks he could pull out of this one. But, he would spare her for now. Besides, he was still too caught up in getting it through his head that she was actually here to come up with anything that would be worth saying at this point. That was for the smart remarks, at least. There were a thousand questions starting to weigh on his mind. Where had she been for the last three years? Why hadn‘t she stayed in touch? Why the hell was she here at this camp? The smirk faded away as these became the more prominent thoughts on his mind. ”Are you okay?” he asked finally, remembering that she had crashed into him. ”You’re wearing your breakfast.” Okay, so Kade couldn’t resist. Even with everything else, he had to make at least one little comment about the fact that she was covered in cereal. A seemingly perfect grin came to his lips as he said it, making it impossible for anyone to mistake this small jest as an insult of any form. He wanted to start asking away as the questions came back to the front of his mind, but Kade wouldn’t just bombard her and expect her to answer. After all, three years was a long time. He certainly wasn’t exactly the same as he had been back when they had first been together, and for all he knew, Chrissy could be totally different. Test the waters, find out, and then see where it goes from there.

[Chrissy Maddison]

She remembered when her and Kade were going out. They had been together for a couple months. It was when she waas living in seattle. Then she had to move. She always had to move when she was a kid. She hated it. It was like, they couldnt stay in one place longer than a couple months. She hated it. She had loved Kade. Well she thought that she had lvoed him. The day she left everything was going wrong. She had found out she was pregnant, and she was scared. She didnt know how she owuld tell him. I mean she was going to be like 'I love you, o by the way, im pregnant' and then leave. Well she couldnt have done that. No way in hell. She woudl have felt so bad. She would have left the poor guy in Seattle, while she left, and she was pregnant, and had his baby. He wouldnt have known what happend to her, and a whole bunch of stuff. It would have sucked so bad. She would have felt bad, and she really didnt wnat him to know about he baby, if he couldnt be in her life. She loved Kaydence, and she really wished that Kade could love her to. She remembered the day she gave birth to Kaydence. She looked at the baby girl, and she had eyes just like Kade. She was thinking of what she wanted to name her, and she finally decided on Kaydence. Why you ask? Because she looked so much liked Kade, and she rememinded her so much of Kade. She named her Kaydence, because the name was so close to Kade, and she really liked it. She had a reason for everything she did in life. Like she had a reason, for not giving Kaydence up for adoption. She had a reason for leaving and not telling Kade - not really - Well she thought that she did. Even if she didnt have a reason, she wanted to believe that she had a reason. She knew in her heart that she didnt, but her mind wanted to tell her different. Her mind told her that she had a reason, even if it was a sucky reason. It told her many things, that her heart didnt believe. She didnt know why, but she listend to her heart alot, and her mind was just kinda left behind to think whatever it wanted.

Christina bit her bottom lip, and looked at Kade. She didnt know what to say. She then looked down at her milk soaked clothes. She couldnt believe that she had actually rna into him. she was a very clumsy girl though. She was known for doing things that most others wouldnt do. Running into things. Tripping over herself. Just to name a phew. "Hi" she said to him. She had said something. But what else was she supposed to say. She couldnt just be like 'Ya, before I left Seattle I found out I was pregnant, you have a 3 yearold daughter' she couldnt do that. She would never know what to say. She was just like that. THings would happen, and she wouldnt have anything to say. No matter how much she hated it, it was the way it was. She hadnt seen him in three years. This was such an akward way of running into him. She knew why she waas here, but why was he? She had never known him to be a camp going person. He liked to sleep in, and he liked to stay up late. Not something you really did at camp. She looked at him, and then at her shirt agian. "Ill be fine" she said, and sat down at the table, across from the table with the kids on it. The bench she had st down on was empty. Infact the whole table was empty. This was rarley seen at camp, expecially at breakfast. She grabbed a napkin off the table, and started to wipe her shirt off. She wanted so badly to tell him about Kaydence. But maybe it was better that he didnt know. She wasnt sure. She pulled a picture out of her jean pocket. It was a picture Kaydence. She looked at it, and set it down on the table. She made sure that it wasnt wet. It was one of the only pictures of the girl that she had with her, and she didnt want it to get ruined. She had carried this picture arond with her all the time. She looked at the picture, and then at Kade. Kaydence looked so much like Kade. Expecially her eyes. She quickly grabbed the picture, and put it in her pocket. She knew that Kade had probably seen it, but he could ask whos he was. She would tell him the truth. She couldnt hide it for much longer.

[kade trent.]

Awkward. Kade didn’t like awkward situations. Usually, when he found himself in one, he did whatever he could to make it easier, like tell some stupid joke to ease the tension of the moment, or do something that would create a sort of distraction away from the reason the moment was so damn awkward to begin with. Standing there with Chrissy was indeed an awkward moment, but Kade had no idea what he could do to make it better. He wasn’t even so sure why it was so awkward to begin with. Sure, they hadn’t seen each other in three years, but that should mean that they are all smiles and hugs, not all stand offish and quiet. Maybe it made a difference because they had dated before, but Kade couldn’t see that being the cause for it. So what if they had been together before? Three years was a long time, and Kade had most certainly moved on. Chrissy wasn’t the type to let herself get all caught up over some guy to the point where three years would pass and she still wasn’t over it. At least, that was how Kade thought she was. But, as mentioned before, she could be a totally different person from the girl that he remembered from Seattle. He genuinely hoped not, though. That girl had been on that had really captured him for awhile, making him, the ultimate player, want to give up his game so he could be with her and only her. That kind of thing didn’t happen often in Kade’s life. In all, there had probably only been three girls to ever hold him like that, and all three had let go, all by mutual decision. Chrissy was a girl that he wasn’t going to forget, but he would admit that he hadn’t thought about her in a long time.

Now, seeing her here at this camp, it brought back tons of memories. Like the day that they had first met at the old high school in Seattle, or when they had first gone out, or slept together for the first time. The feelings that he had once felt for this girl were gone. She was still his friend, but he knew that their time like that was over, and it wasn’t something that you could just get back. Things didn’t happen that way. ”Hi.” Kade’s grin lessened at her greeting, but nothing too noticeable. This was what he didn’t like. Kade and Chrissy used to be able to talk about anything, and could talk for hours on end without running out of things to say. Now it seemed that they couldn’t find any words, and Kade really hated that. But, times change and people change with it. To expect things to be exactly the same as they had been before would be foolish, and Kade didn’t want them to be identical. He just wanted things to be close to how they used to be. ”I’ll be fine.” Hazel eyes followed her movement as she sat down at an empty table and started dabbing at her shirt with a napkin. Poor Chrissy. Kade felt bad that he was the reason she was currently covered in milk and cereal, but the girl had never been the most graceful person in the world. He remembered picking on her about her constant tripping and falling, but at the same time worrying about her because she was so clumsy and he didn’t want to see her seriously hurt.

Kade came to stand beside of Chrissy just as she looked up at him. For a moment, Kade thought that she might say something, but then saw that that wasn’t the case. Then, his eyes moved to the table, a picture she had apparently laid out catching his attention. It was of a little girl that Kade hadn’t seen before, but before he could get a closer look or ask anything about this picture, Chrissy snatched it away. She put it in her jean pocket, and that left Kade more baffled than before. So Chrissy was here at Camp Brunswick with him. She wasn’t saying much. She obviously either didn’t want to share any information about that picture, or she didn’t think he would care and hid it away. Kade had never been one for kids. He didn’t like how they whined and screamed and bawled all the time. But there had been something about the one in that picture that didn’t disturb him so much. ”Cute kid,” he commented as he took a seat on the bench beside of Chrissy. He absently wondered why Chrissy would be carrying around a picture of a kid, but decided that he wouldn’t ask since things seemed to be so touchy between them at the present time.

ooc ;; sorry for shortness.

[Chrissy Maddison]

Three Years. Thats what it had been. When she moved from Seattle, she hated her parents. Her mom always would say, 'O honey you'll find someone knew', or ' You'll make new friends, but keep the old ones' Her mom always tried to be happy go luckey around the kids, but she knew that her mom hated moving just as much as they did, or more. I mean her mom didnt work, and she really hated that. She was always cleaning or doing somehting crazy. Her mom was a really great person, who just didnt know how to tell her dad how much she hated moving. She was afraid that if her dad made them move much more she would divocre him. That would be really hard on the family. She didnt know what woudl happen if her parents got a divorce. I mean they had been together for what, like 30 something years. She didnt know, but it was along time. To long to ruin a relationship...or a marriage. She loved her parents alot, and she couldnt see them go threw somehting like that. She then thought about Kaydence. I mean, if she didnt tell Kade this summer that Kaydence was his daughter, then she would never know her real dad. Well thats what Christina thought anyways. But maybe she was just over analysing it. She did that alot. She took to much time to think, when she coudl just be living ehr life to the fullest. But this was one thing that Christina could over analyse. One thing that she should actually take the time to think about. Kaydence needed a father, but did she have the strength to tell Kade that she had a secret. That Kaydence was his duaghter, that he even had a daughter. She wasnt sure. She kinda knew what it was like not to have a dad, because her dad was always working. She did actually have a dad, but she didnt see him much. Would she want Kaydence to never see her dad, to never know her real dad. She wasnt sure. She wasnt sure of anything. She wouldnt be suprised, if she just burst out crying, and told Kade everything, thats how jumbled her brain was right now.

Chrissy kept wipping off. She would probably havta go back to the cabin and change. She wasnt going to walk around all day with a dirty stained shirt. She just couldnt do that. She woudl look weird, and like she had decided not to wash her clothes. She was ok with wearing her jeans, because they werent really wet, but her shirt was like soaked. She couldnt believe that she had actually run into kade. Of all people she had ot run into him. Before today, she didnt even know he was working at Brunswick. It was actually kinda weird. She didnt really like it. I mean, it would be really akward no matter what. If she told him, she would probably end up avoiding him, and if she didnt tell him she would aviod him. Either way it wasnt a win win situation, it was more like a lose lose situation. She would probably get the courage to actually talk to him about everything the last day and just like three years ago, she would chicken out, and Kaydence would never know her real dad. She was so flustered, and she was cold. Yes, even though Cyprus Hall was usually hot, because of all the bodies, she was cold. Why you ask? Because she had milk all over her chest. Down her shirt, and everywhere. She hated it. Atleast it wasnt in her hair. Not yet anyways.

She bit her bottom lip when he came behind her. She saw him look at the picture. She knew he had seen it, there was no denying it. She thought. She thought to much. Yes, she admitted it. If she didnt stop thinking so much, her brain would probably explode from over activity. Ok she knew that that really wouldnt happen, but she decided in her mind that it would. She decided she needed to sotp thinking, and just go with the flow. Live her life one day at a time. Ya, like this was going to work for longer than one day. If there was one thing that Chrissy was always doing, it was thinking. She was thinking way to much. Im sur eif she could, she would think in her sleep. Wait, do you think in your sleep, she wasnt sure. Maybe you did, maybe you didnt. SHe wouldn never know. She heard him. Cute Kid was what he had said. So ya, he obviously seen the picture I mean, it was kinda obvious that she had taken it would, and set it down and stuff. She looked up at him. "Her names Kaydence" she said then in a quieter voice, so that he maybe wouldnt hear, but probably would she said... "She's my daughter" She gulped, and bit her bottom lip. What was her going to think. That she went off and got pregnant after she left Seattle, she wasnt sure. He could think anything, and he would probably tell her what he thought. She wasnt sure though. She did the first step, to tell him that Kaydence was his daughter. Hopefully, maybe she would tell him, but she wasnt sure, and this was one thing that she didnt want to think about anymore.

[kade trent.]

Time is no man’s friend. That statement couldn’t ever not be true. Whoever first said it really knew what they were talking about. That one, and the one that goes that time waits for no one. You never know how much time you are going to have, or if you’ll have enough time to do the things that you want to do in life. In one second, your entire life could be changed forever. Kade knew this to be true. It only took one second for the car to crash; one second to end his little brother’s life and alter the lives of everyone left behind. In thinking along those lines, everything can change over the course of a year or two. You can look back that far, and not even recognize the person that you were back then because everything around you has changed so dramatically. Sometimes, the change can be for the better, or it can be for the worse. It is rare that a person gets to decide how it is that change and time effect their lives. It just doesn’t work out that way, and that was something that Kade was learning the hard time over and over again. But, it could also be reasoned that he did have the power to decided, that everyone had the power to decide how their life was going to be. They were just making bad choices. Either way, it is still true that time isn’t a friend, and that it waits for no one. Every second that passes by is another one that you will never get back. In the next second, something could happen that will change your life. In the next year, something might happen that you would never expect to happen in a thousand years, and you’ll be the one to deal with it.

When Kade heard the words, “She’s my daughter,” leave Chrissy’s lips, he was sure that she had a great understanding of that last concept. The Chrissy that he knew wasn’t the type of girl that just ran off and got pregnant. She had been a sweet girl with a lot left to do with her life before she had a child. Kade could hardly believe that it was actually Chrissy’s daughter. For one, well, Kade didn’t know a lot about kids, but the one in the picture had looked at least two or three. That meant that she would have had to have gotten pregnant not too long after she had left him, and Kade didn’t see her as the type. For two, Kade had really thought that maybe it was a little girl that she had been baby sitting, or maybe a cousin or something. Not a daughter. And for three, well, he couldn’t really get much of a three. He was still stuck on the fact that Chrissy had just said that the girl in the picture was her daughter. Kade momentarily thought that maybe Chrissy was trying to pull some prank on him or something, that any second she was going to break into a wide grin and start teasing him about the look of shock on his face and that she couldn’t believe that he had fallen for something like that. But, the look on her fragile face and the way that her voice had sounded as she said it left Kade knowing that this wasn’t a joke. Chrissy really did have a daughter. That also left Kade with the belief that he understood another concept about time; that over the course of a few years, everything can be completely different, including the people you thought you knew the best. This Chrissy that sat before him suddenly felt like a stranger to him, but he really shouldn’t have been shocked by this. After three years, he wasn’t the same person that he used to, not really, and it appeared that she wasn’t, either.

”Wow, a kid,” he mused out loud, still trying to comprehend that Chrissy was a mother, that she had had this baby and had been raising her over the last few years. What had she said she had named her? Kaydence? That was a pretty name. ”A lot more can happen in three years than what you realize, huh?” he asked, his hazel eyes looking into a pretty face from his past that seemed to be fitted onto this stranger. That was a silly thought, of course. He knew Chrissy. His Chrissy, that is. This Chrissy was an entirely new person to him. ”Can I see the picture?” Kade had gotten a small glimpse of the picture before, but now he asked more out of curiosity. If Chrissy had a daughter, he wanted to see what she looked like. If the girl was lucky, she would look like her mother, but Chrissy was absolutely beautiful. As she handed him the picture, Kade let his hazel eyes scan over the appearance of the little girl. She really was a cute kid, and that coming from Kade was something considering that he really wasn’t much on kids at times. Kade thought that Kaydence had her mom’s smile, but then again, Kade could have been mistaken. And, he knew nothing about the father or what he was looked like. He didn’t even know if the man who had fathered this child was still in the lives of Chrissy and Kaydence. Kade didn’t really want to ask incase it was a touchy subject, and in all honesty, he was sure that he didn’t want to know the details of how Chrissy had ended up pregnant in the first place. Everyone knows where babies come from, and Kade didn’t need to know what lead her down that path once again after she had left Seattle. But, just because he knew better than to come right out in ask, didn’t mean that he didn’t wonder about it.

”She really is a pretty thing, just like her mom,” Kade said with a small smile as he handed the picture back to Chrissy, letting his hand drop easily to the surface of the table after she had taken it. ”I like her name, too.” It sounded a lot like his own name to him, but that wasn’t really the reason that he liked it. It just seemed to fit the girl so well. Kade still felt like he was sitting beside of a girl that he just barely knew, but he found himself talking to her like she was still exactly the same. And maybe she hadn’t changed as much as he imagined that she had in the last three years, but everything that he had seen so far was leading him to believe it. ”You know, it’s kind of sad,” he started again, thinking out loud. ”Me and you were pretty close back when, and now I realize that I didn’t even know you had a baby.” It was both of their faults that he hadn’t known. Chrissy had made no effort to keep in contact with Kade, and Kade hadn’t been hunting down Chrissy’s new phone number or tried to see her. It had been a high school thing, and then it had been over, right? Kade had thought about Chrissy from time to time, but he liked to think that she thought of him too. He hadn’t been lying when he said that they had been close. At one time, they had been pretty damn inseparable. Then all of a sudden, it was over almost like it hadn’t happened at all. In time, Kade had learned to live like that, but now he was seeing what distance does to a relationship, and he wasn’t liking it much at all.

[Chrissy Maddison]

LIfe was an interesting subject, and so was fate or whatever people called it. I mean why did Chrissy and Kade meet again. She wasnt sure. SHe could have ran into anyone in the hall, and she ran into Kade. How weird was that? She didnt know why. She didnt believe it was fate though. She didnt believe in fate. She liked to believe in fact, but fact didnt always work either. Fact was true, then alot of things would be different. The fact of the matter was that CHrissy had wanted to tell Kade that she was pregnant before she left Seattle, but in real life she didnt. Fact didnt happen that day. She thought of the day alot. What had held her back from telling him. She wasnt sure. Why hadnt she stayed in touch with him, and then eventually told him. Why, that always seemed to be the question. Why did things happen the way they did. She wasnt sure, and she didnt think she would ever know. She had loved Kade so much, she told him everything. But that one day she couldnt get the strength to tyell him the truth. She could tell that he knew that she was acting kinda weird that day, but he never said anything about it. They just kissed, and left. It was a horrible ending to a great relationship. She wished it hadnt ended, but it did. Three years ago to be exact. It was her fault tthat her and Kade hadnt stayed in touch over the years. She deleted him from everything, because she didnt want to have to tell him.

She was luckey that Chaston didnt make it his mission to tell him. Chaston had always looked out for her, and when she told him she was pregnant, he flipped. From that moment on, he hated Kade. He told Chrissy t hat he wanted to punch his face in, but she stopped him from doing anything drastic. She knew that if he would have done something, she would havta explain. Thats one thing that she didnt want to do. She didnt want to explain. She thought of Chaston then. He was probably babysitting Kaydence, or he was with his girlfriend Morgan. Morgan was a really cool girl. Chrissy had met her once or twice. The funny thing was that both of them were virgins. Chrissy she didnt understand how she could have been such a slut, and then her little brother is a virgin...and so was his girlfriend. It was kinda weird. She just decided that he didnt want to do anything like she had. At first, Chaston hated Chrissy for getting pregnant. He told her that she had been a slut and that it was her fault, but then he stopped being such an ass, and just tried to help her. She loved her brother alot, no matter how much of an ass he could be sometimes. She was just luckey to have her brother, she was luckey to have a good family, that loved her.

She pulled the picture back out of her pocket, and gave it to him. She didnt know what he would think. She knew that hte little girl looked so much like Kade, but maybe he wouldnt notice it. She knew that he would probably think that she ran off and got pregnant right after she left, but did he really think of her like that. She wasnt the kinda girl taht would do that. Ya she was a slut, but she liked commitment, and she wouldnt have been in a relationship, and then just start hooking up with random guys. She watched him as he looked at the picture, and then gave it back to her. She put it back in her pocket. He said she was beautiful like her mom. He was always sweet like that. He was always trying to make her happy, make her feel loved. She liked that. He was a real gentalmen to her. It was actually cool how he was so nice to her. She couldnt imagine what it would hve been like if he would have been different. "Thanks" she said to him. She knew she was pretty and all, but she didnt really take it to heart. She wasnt stuck up either, where she would be all like im beautiful and you arent. Actually she was very humble. She didnt take her beauty to heart, she just let people compliment her, and then she kept on with her life. She didnt know why she was like this, but she was. Maybe it was from her mom. Her mom was so pretty, but she didnt breg about it or anything.

"Ya" she said to him "We were pretty close werent we" They had been such good friends, and they had been a great couple. Everyone thought that they would be together for along time. They always said that if she left they would still stay in touch, and they would still stay together. They would try to be a couple. Ya, long distant relationships didnt work well, but she thought that maybe it would. Maybe they would be different then everyone else. But they didnt stay together. Nothing happend the way they had wanted it to. She wished it had though. She really wished that she had told him that day, they would have maybe stayed otgether. Kaydence would have a dad. So many things she wished had happend, never would. Well some of them would happen, but most wouldnt. She looked at him and bit her lip. "I should have told you the day I left" she said to him. O how she wished she could go back in time, and tell him that she had been pregnant. Tell him how much she had loved him. There were so many things she would have doen if she could go back in time, but she couldnt.

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[kade trent.]

Kade was the type of person that once you are able to call him friend, you are always able to call him friend. Well, unless you do something that falls in the lines of betrayal or something that really pisses him off, but that is beside the point. The point is that Kade doesn’t let people in easily. He has some issues with trusting people. They were a little bit worse since the last time that Chrissy had been around him, but he had always had issues in this area, never wanting to trust too much in one person, or confide all the details. He had always been more of the type to keep things to himself, rarely letting anyone in unless he felt that he could honestly trust them with anything. Kade was an easy enough guy to get along with, sure. He liked to talk, and would talk to just about anyone. There were a lot of people that would say that they were friends with him, and maybe they really did consider him to be one of their friends, but it took a lot more than just a few chats to get Kade to call a person his friend. There wasn’t any particular thing that had to take place for this to happen, but he had to know the person long enough to feel like he could trust them, to feel that they were worthy of a friendship. Once you were inside that ring of people to him, then you were golden, set for life with a friend that would do anything for you if he possibly could. Chrissy had once been in that ring, working her way into it fairly easily. She was just a good person like that, and Kade had little trouble warming up to her. Now, even with all that time passed between them, Kade still held loyal to her, and would until she gave him some sort of reason not to. He doubted that something like that would ever happen, though. But, he didn’t know her as well as he once had, and one never knew what would come up.

Even though it had been both of their faults that Kade hadn’t known about the baby, he still felt guilty, like he had let her down in some way. That was how Kade’s mind worked. No matter whose fault it really was, he always felt like he had some share in it. The old Kade might not have been like that, but this new one that was sitting here with Chrissy now certainly was. Even when it was pretty much bizarre for him to feel guilty over things, Kade would always feel that in some sort of twisted way it was his fault. Just like now in this situation, he felt that he should have known about it someway or another. He should have made sure that he had her new number, or even an address, so he could check up on her from time to time just to make sure that she was okay and doing good. Instead, he hadn’t taken the time and had let her go like she had dropped off the face of the planet. Chrissy, the girl that had at one time been his best friend and a lover to him, had had a baby and he didn’t find out until years later. That was too late to be finding out. He should have known about it when it had happened, but maybe Chrissy hadn’t wanted him to know. There was obviously something different about her now. Maybe she had cut him out of her life when she had left to make things easier for the both of them. Kade was known to do that from time to time. It wasn’t the best way of handling things, but it sure did seem to work while for a little while, at least. He couldn’t imagine why she wouldn’t at least want him to know some things about her, even now after three years had made them older to the world and a different from who they had been back then.

”We were pretty close, weren’t we?” Pretty close didn’t even seem to cover it now. Kade and Chrissy would have probably been elected as their graduating year’s class couple had she stayed in Seattle. Kade had really let himself fall for her, and had never really had any intention of leaving her at all. For a girl to tame the Kade Trent was something pretty special, and he had known that it was something worth holding onto. But, when it had ended, it ended. He was hurt for a little while, though he never admitted it to anyone, and then he got right back up on his feet and moved on. There was no use for waiting for someone that wasn’t coming back, and Kade had never been much on sitting and waiting, anyway. Even so, that didn’t erase what they had once had together. ”I should have told you the day I left.” Yeah, it would have been nice to know that she was having a baby. Kade didn’t know what he would have been able to do, but at least he would have known about it. But, she hadn’t told him, and there was no going back and changing that fact now. ”Yeah, but-” Before he had started speaking, Kade had mostly been focusing on the “I should have told you” part of what Chrissy had said. Now, the, “the day I left,” part was catching up with him. ”Wait. The day you left? You…you knew then? Surely had to have misheard her somehow, or she had misspoken. Kade looked at her, lost and confused as those words played over in his mind. If she had known that she was pregnant the day that she had left Seattle, that meant that one of two things had occurred. Either she had cheated on him and gotten pregnant, or she had been ever loyal to him, and he was the father of that girl in the picture. A very cold feeling came over him then, even though it was warm in the dinning hall. That couldn’t be right, could it? He had to have misunderstood that. There was no way in hell that he had a kid and didn’t know about it. At least, he hoped there wasn’t.

[Chrissy Maddison]

The past. She wished it could all be as simple as it was before. She wished it was as simple as a 1980s romance film. They would fall for each other, and then get married and so on and so forth. Now days there was divorce, there was affairs. ANything could happen now. She hated it. She just wished everything was simple. Sometimes she wished she could curl up next to her mommy, and cry on her shoulder then eventually everything would be better. Well haha, that doesnt work anymore. Maybe when your five, and you fell of your bike but not in the realworld. Nothing is just simple anymore. Everything has some sort of complication. Something that will hold you back. She knew that these were the cold hard facts, that nothing was simple anymore. But why? The question that popped up to many times. She wanted to change her life. She either wished that she had told Kade o so many years ago, or that she hadnt ran into him now. She always wanted to change things, but she never could. The things she had wanted to change were always impossible to change. She just had to accept that this was the way it was supposed to be. Everything happend for a reason right, well this was supposed to happen for a reason...well thats what she thought anyways. Why else would she have ran into her ex, and split her breakfast all over herself? Why??

If she would have stayed in Seattle. Thats the thing that always like haunted her or something. I mean, she could have stayed. SHe had the choice, but she choose to leave. Why she didnt know. Probably because she was scared. She was afraid of what her friends would think, what Kade would think of her when she was all fat and pregnant. She was also afraid of not having her mommy by her stay by her side threw it all. She needed her mom. Her mom had helped her with everything. She made sure she was comfortable and stuff. Her mom was with her when she had the baby girl. She had been afraid of so many things that year, and one of them being having her baby. When she had the baby, her parents[expecially her dad] had pushed for her to give it up for adoption. What? She had carried the baby for nine months, and then just went threw a hard labor, she wasnt going to give her baby up. She was going to love her with all her heart. Thats what Christina had done. SHe loved her daughter so much. She couldnt imagine her life without her. Waking up early to feed her, late nights, where she just wouldnt go to sleep. So many things would be different if she didnt have Kaydence. If there was one thing she wouldnt change about that year, was keeping the baby girl. No matter how hard her mom tried to tell her that it would be better. Kaydence would have a better home. She just held on to her baby and cried and told them that she would never give her up. If there was one thing she did right, it was keep the baby girl. So many things had happend that year, but if they hadnt happend, her life would be drasticly different. SHe would have stayed in Seattle. She would probably still be with Kade. She wouldnt be at summer camp. Things would be so so different, but she was glad it wasnt that way.

Shit. She had dug herself into a great big hole. A hole that there was only one way of escaping. He was either thinking that she was disloyal and she cheated on him, or in some way shape or form Kaydence was his daughter. What he was thinking, she could never be sure off. SHe wasnt sure she wanted to know what he was thinking anyways. I mean, I dont know. She listend to him carefully. Maybe he didnt notice that she said the whole "the day I left" part. She wasnt sure though. I mean kade was smart, he probably did. She didnt know why or hwo she had said it, but she did. And right now she didnt like that she had siad it, but maybe it was a good thing that she had. She didnt know. She was just one mind, and if she knew what Kade was thinking she would know if she had said the right thing. She had then looked down at the table. Yes, she knew what he was thinking. Well ok no she didnt. She figured that he probably thought she had cheated on him. But that wasnt the k inda girl she was. So really, she couldnt be sure. "Ya um I tried to tell you... the day I left, but I didnt know how to tell you" she siad to him. She had to tell him now. It was the only way out of the so called hole that she was in. She felt a hot tear fall down her cheek, she quickly wipped it away. She couldnt cry, so she tried to hold it together. She looked back up at him."You see um, Kaydence" she sid to him then quieter she said "She's your um... your her dad" She had siad it. She actually did. But you see, now came the complicated part, what was he going to say.

[kade trent.]

This morning was certainly one that had started off different, and had just gone to plain weird. For starters, he had to watch as teenagers picked on one another, stole each other’s toast, and cursed like sailors over breakfast. Then, he had listened to some fascinating hiking stories that had made him weary of taking his campers on a hike the following day like he was supposed to. After that, he had stopped and talked to some kids that he really didn’t know, and that had led to Christina Maddison colliding with him out of nowhere. And all of that had led up to the conversation that Kade and Chrissy were having right now, one that was strained and awkward, and at the moment very confusing. This was really the last thing that Kade expected to happen when he finally forced himself out of bed this morning. He had been thinking more along the lines that he would eat his breakfast, then find that damn schedule that he still needed to get, then go about his usual routine of keeping campers in line for the most part and doing whatever it was that he was supposed to be doing. He honestly hadn’t thought about Chrissy Maddison for a good long while, so running into this girl from past this morning in Cyprus Hall of Camp Brunswick wasn’t really something that he had thought had a possibility of happening today. Though, at first it had seemed sort of like a good thing. Maybe they could get to know one another again and have some fun this summer, like they used to when they were younger. But, as Kade sat down with her and started speaking with her, he was slowly starting to see that it wasn’t really a possibility. They were too different from how they used to be, and this conversation they were having as coming to a place that neither of them really wanted it to be.

That cold feeling still lingered over Kade, his hazel eyes not able to leave Chrissy’s face for a moment. At this moment, he didn’t really know which one would be worse. Her cheating on him and getting pregnant would cut like a knife. Back then, they had really been a good couple, one that a lot of people saw lasting for a very long time, if not eventually leading into marriage. Kade had never been one to buy into that whole love theory, but with Chrissy he had come dangerously close to thinking that it was real. To think that he had been betrayed like that, well, that would really make him think of her differently, and he wasn’t so sure he could just forgive and forget something like that. Kade had never thought that Chrissy would be the type to be unfaithful, but maybe there was more too it. Or, it could be the other way, and that little girl, Kaydence, could really be his. This is where he couldn’t decide which of the two options would be worse. On one hand, there was betrayal that would definitely hurt, but on the other, he was a father at age nineteen and he had never seen this child before except for that one little picture. There was always some chance that she was lying, but if Chrissy was at least a little like the one he remembered from Seattle, she wouldn’t lie to him. Kade had always had this odd ability to read people, to know when they were lying or telling the truth or what they were feeling at a given moment. Chrissy had always been one that he hadn’t had to use that ability on, him knowing that she was honest and wouldn’t lie, but right now he could help but to try and look a little deeper, to see if this was all the truth or some elaborate hoax. There again, he couldn’t decide which would be better, her lying to him or her telling the truth, but having chosen to keep it from him for the past three years. In this haze of cold, Kade was also starting to feel anger spike within him. It didn’t matter which way this went at this point; it still wasn’t going to be very good on either end.

She had tried to tell him the day that she left, but she didn’t know how to tell him. Well, that didn’t give him any reason to think one way or the other. Kade wasn’t really the guy that was known for his amazing patience that he had with other people. In fact, he was known for an amazing lack of patience at times. Kade only had patience when it came to people that he really cared about, or could completely understand that they needed a little more time. Here with Christina, he should have understood that this probably wasn’t an easy thing for her to say, but he was having a hard time seeing it that way. This was something that effected him directly, something that he needed to know. Even as his patience wore thin, he kept quite, still watching her as he waited for her to go on, to make some sense of all of this. And then she had said it. He was Kaydence’s dad. The tear that had rolled down Chrissy’s cheek was enough to make Kade see that this really was tearing her up inside, and that she wasn’t lying, she wasn’t trying to sucker him in. For three years, he had had a daughter that he knew nothing about. He just now saw the significance of her name. Kaydence. Kade. Wow, this really had been one hell of a morning. Now, add to that list finding out that he had a kid somewhere. There had always been a little voice in the back of Kade’s mind that wondered if he ever really had gotten a girl pregnant out of all of his one night stands and other fling like relationships. But then, he had always countered that with thinking that the girl would try to contact him in someway and let him know. Obviously, that theory just went out the window. Kade tried to think of something to say, anything that would end the silence that had fallen over the two of them as they sat there, looking to one another. What does ones say when he is told that he has a daughter?

He had to get out of there. That was the first thought that came to mind. He needed to get out and clear his head before they started talking about this, or else he was just going to end of yelling and letting his anger get the best of him. That would cause a huge scene and then someone was bound to find out the reason for his angry outburst, and there would be the gossip of the camp for the next week or so until something else came along. Kade’s face was mostly blank of emotion, but his voice carried the slightest edge when the spoke. ”Thanks for letting me know now, Chrissy,” he said as he stood from the bench. Kade then turned and started for the main door of the hall, anger welling up more and more as he let this all sink in. He was angry at her for not telling him back then, for waiting to tell him for so long, and then just sitting him down and telling him like she did. You don’t do that to a person, especially a person that was still mostly unstable as Kade was. But, she didn’t know anything about him or what he had been through in the past couple of years, and she had no way of knowing, but that was the only thing they shared a mutual fault for. Kade pushed hard against the door of the dinning hall, sending it flying back to make a loud, snapping sound against the side of the building as he trudged through without a look back over his shoulder as the whole hall grew silent, watching him leave in all his fury. A few deep breaths of the fresh outside air did little to help him, but he still tried it anyway.

[Chrissy Maddison]

Things had been well, she didnt know. Before this she was somewhat keeping to herself. She didnt tell alot of people about kaydence. She felt so bad for leaving Kade without actually telling him the truth, so she just decided that people didnt need to know about kaydence. Well that worked for like a couple months. Then she started taking her places, and people questioned her. Was she her mom? Who was her dad? She answered the first question, but the second question she tried to dodge it. Well she couldnt always do it. She eventually told some people, but not many. So Kaydence had always been her little secret. WEll not always, but most of the time. She loved her daughter, but she just didnt know if she wanted to show her off. I mean, after Seattle they moved to California, so it was kinda easy to keep her secret. Chrissy wasnt ashamed of the baby girl, she just didnt want everyone to judge her because of her daughter. She didnt want people to think she was some kinda whore or something. I mean, she knew that people thought she was but she learned to ignore it.

She had loved Kade. They were the perfect couple. Her parents liked him, and that was good. Everyone was always saying that they would be together, that nothing could break them apart. Well I guess everyone in high school was wrong. They had broke up, they had seperated. She loved him, but she couldnt change the past. She had already astablished that many times before. She didnt know why she kept going back to it though. She thought about this alot. Everyone had been right, well for awhile they had been. She had wanted to spend the rest of her life Kade, but that never happend. It never would either. She was pretty sure that Kade would hate her after she told him. She didnt know why they had to move apart. Well she did. It was her fault that they had moved apart. Her fault that she didnt try to stay incontact with Kade. No matter how many people told her that it wasnt her fault, she never believe them. She knew that it was her fault. She knew that if she could have had the strength to tell him in the first place, this wouldnt be happening. She knew that everything would be better. She had known that it would be better in the first place, so why didnt she tell him. WHy couldnt she just have told him?

She knew that things would be different from here on out. She told him the truth, and she would have to face what he had to say. What would he say? Would he be mad? Thats what she thought. She thought he would be mad. She knew that she had ruined there whole relationship. She ruined the fact that they had been such good friends. The fact that they had once been in love. She ruined alot of things by telling him the truth, but she had to tell him the truth. She couldnt have kept it from him until they met again. He had to know, even though it was to late. Even though he should have known three years ago. She knew that by not telling him right away she would have to tell him eventually. She had told herself that many times, but you see she never thought that she would actually have to tell him. She thought that they wouldnt see each other ever again, but she was wrong. She felt hot tears role down her cheeks. Even though she told herself that she didnt watn to cry, she did. She knew she would, and she would have to accept it. She hated crying infront of people, but she did. She couldnt stop the tears, but she tried. She looked at Kade.

She slowly shook her head. She knew tha tit would change. She knew that it was a mistake. She knew she had ruined things, but she did it. She did something that she thought she would never do. That she wouldnt ever be able to do. She had screwed up though. She should have taken him somewhere. To a dorm, something other than tell him in Cyprus Hall. Everyone could see them, and she noticed a phew campers that were stairing at them. She knew her eyeliner was probably running, and she knew that her cheeks would be red. But whatever. She heard him, and then she watched him walk away. She heard the door slam. She had to go after him, didnt she. She wasnt sure. She wipped the tears from ehr cheeks. If she was going to go after him, she would have to tell him everything. But, she was ready. She was ready to tell him, she had to. She stood up from her seat, and ran out after him. "Kade wait" she yelled after him. She saw him, and then she walked over to him. "Please, just listen to me" she said slowly and quietly.

[ugg, kinda sucky...sorry]

[kade trent.]

What in the hell was he supposed to do now? Kade knew that he shouldn’t have left like that. What he should have done was kept his anger in check, took Chrissy somewhere where there weren’t nosey little campers to little in on their conversation, and talked this through. But, what was there really left to talk about? She had just told him that he had fathered a child three years ago. There really wasn’t much left to figure out, was there? And honestly, who was he kidding? Kade had never been good at the whole keeping his anger in check thing. That was what had landed him at this camp in the first place. But, then he came back to that question, what was he supposed to do now? Kade could forget that he had ever seen Chrissy, and could ignore her for the rest of the summer. He could forget that she told him about Kaydence, and he go on through his life, living it as he always had. Even as he thought it, Kade knew that going back now wouldn’t be possible. He wouldn’t be able to forget about that little girl that he had seen in the picture, and he wouldn’t be able to ignore Chrissy all summer. They were going to have to talk about it, he guessed, but he wasn’t so sure if he wanted to do it anytime soon. He hadn’t seen Chrissy in three years, and all of a sudden she runs into him and just tells him that this kid is his. What the hell. That was the part that was bugging Kade the most in that moment, you know, along with the fact that he had a daughter. Now her strange behavior on the day that she had left Seattle made sense, and it could be the reasoning behind her different behavior just then. Even if it had been bugging her to the point where she had to just come out and say it, that was her fault, not his, and she should have seen that. Oh well, just like it always was, what’s done is done and there was no going back.

Kade knew that he had left Chrissy in tears, and that he did feel sort of bad for. He didn’t like to be the bad guy, but damn it, she had just told him that he had a daughter that she had purposefully kept a secret from him. He had every right to be angry with her from where he stood, and that was how he was going to keep looking at it. Kade would just go through his day in this pissy mood, probably upset some campers because he snapped at them, and then go and find one of the boys in his cabin that he knew had some beer or other kind of alcoholic beverage and drink some of it down. He would have to find Brooklyn sometime throughout the day. She would find a way to make him smile, even if it were only a little. But even that might not be such a great idea. The last thing that Kade wanted to do was snap at her when she didn’t deserve it. That, and she would know that there was something wrong, and then Kade would have to tell her. He didn’t know how she would take it, and he didn’t need two falling outs in one day. No, he would just wait until he was in a better mood, but until then he would just avoid everyone and be an ass of a counselor like all the older ones were. Great. Thanks, Chrissy. There was a part of Kade that felt bad for putting the blame of all of this on her, the part that was used to taking the blame and guilt for everything himself. Maybe had he asked her about it back then, made her explain to him on the day why she was so upset, then she would have told him and it wouldn’t have had to come down to this. If he had taken the time to look her up, maybe he would have found out sooner. But, it would have all been the same. Kade had no way of knowing that she was pregnant back before she left Seattle, so him not knowing then was on her. Kade raked his hand through his dark blonde hair, his hazel eyes on the ground as he kept walking, trying to redirect his mind to what he really had to do that day, and that was find that schedule and let go of this before he did or said something that he regretted because of this whole mess.

Too bad that Chrissy had other ideas. Kade heard the door to Cyprus Hall open and close behind him, and through a glace over his shoulder that revealed Chrissy running after him. Great. ”Kade, wait.” Why should he? What was there to wait for? ”Please, just listen to me.” Her voice had been quiet, almost pleading, but Kade paid little attention to that. It was the words in themselves that shot through him, made his hazel eyes narrow and him spin around to face her, anger set into the features of his normally relaxed and smiling face. ”What else could you possibly have to say?” he near shouted, hating how his anger could make him turn into this person that he really didn’t like, but doing little to stop it from doing so in this situation. ”I mean, you just randomly run into me one morning after three years and tell me I have a daughter. That’s real nice, Chrissy. Did you even think about me at all before you said anything?” That might have come off as him being selfish, but that wasn’t how he had meant it. He had meant in a way that she should have really thought about it before she had said it. He knew that it must have been hard to keep that from him all this time, but had she honestly thought about how it was going to effect him? Or how he would react? If Kade had a secret to tell as big as that, he would have at least had the courtesy to strike up a good conversation and maybe actually get to know her again before he shared instead of just blurting it out. Hell, he did have something that Chrissy didn’t know, and hadn’t jumped right into telling her all about it.

[Chrissy Maddison]

She knew she had screwed up. Right after she had said it. I mean, it had been three years. She had been holding it in for three years. She never told anyone about Kaydence's dad. Her family was the only people who knew about Kade being the little girls dad. She wished she hadnt have said anything. Kade would still be sitting next to her. He wouldnt have left. Campers wouldnt be looking at her. The door wouldnt have slammed shut. She screwed up. You see, things always led back to her. She should have told him right away. She knew for like a week before she left. Why hadnt she told him then. Why why why? That was her bigest question. Everything always went back to why. Why did she have to get pregnant? Why hadnt she told him the truth? Why why why?? She had stop using the question. It just wasnt a resonable question. Asking why, would never give her an answer, it would just dig her into a bigger hole. That wouldnt do her any good. Holes were not a good thing. She always dug herself into big gigantic holes and then it was hard to get out. Only certain things could bring her out of these holes, and that was telling the truth. She didnt expect Kade to be happy with her. She didnt even expect to listen to her. But she had to try. She knew she hurt him by not telling him, but it was done. She couldnt go back in time, no matter how hard she wanted to. The past it was over, it was done and it couldnt be changed no matter how much either of them wanted it to be changed. She hated that fact. SHe hated it so mcuh.

She bit her bottom lip and looked at him. She was crying again now. She knew he was mad. She could tell by the tone of his voice. She wipped her tears again. She hated crying. It showed that someone had gotten to her. It showed that she wasnt as strong as she appeared. She liked being strong. She didnt want people to think she wasnt. SHe had to be strong. For her sake. Had she just been thinking about herself when she didnt tell him that she was pregnant. Thats what she thought, but she didnt know. Her mom always told her that she made the right choice, but she knew that she hadnt. She looked up at him again, and then at the ground. Campers were looking at them, because they could feel the tention. They knew that somehting was going on. Damn, the campers were smart. She had never realised it until this year. She sniffled, and then she was going to say somehting. "IM sorry Kade" she said to him "I just had to tell you this time. If I wouldnt have said it then, then I never would have" She was crying again. Great. "Kade I was fucking 16. I was scared. I didnt know what to do. My brother wanted to kill you. My dad hated me because he thought that I was just a dumb slut, and my mom was the only one who understood." She said to him. "I was afraid of what you were going to say. I was thinking to much about it, and I thought that you would be mad or something, and honestly what would you have said if I told you I was pregnant 2 hours before I was leaving Seattle. Dont blame this all on me"

[damn, that sucked, and there was alot of talking, sorry]

[kade trent.]

God had to have hand picked Kade out of the billions of people on the planet to use for his own source of entertainment. There were days when Kade didn’t really believe that God existed, but on the days that he thought that The Almighty was out there somewhere, Kade was convinced that this had to be the only reason that half of the shit that happened in his life happened at all. I mean, Kade could look around and see people everywhere that lived normal, easy going lives. Sure, they had their ups and their downs, but their ups and downs didn’t seem to be anywhere near extreme as Kade’s were. People everywhere had lost siblings, just as he had, but usually, their lives picked back up and they could go on and do things like they would have before, but not Kade. After the death of his brother, Kade’s life just seemed to be nothing but him tripping, falling, and fighting to get back up only to trip again. How many other people could say that they’ve lost both siblings, one to death and one to hate, a parent to alcohol, multiple friends for various reasons, had their heart handed back to them in a million shattered little pieces, and find out that they have a three-year-old daughter all over the course of three years? Kade was sure that there were others besides him, but those were just a few things that had happened to him. There was a lot of crime involvement, dealings with drugs, and just one big mess after another that he was left with, trying to clean it up so he could at least hope that one day his life wouldn’t officially suck. Today, it seemed, was not that day because he was stuck in some hell hole of a camp, facing off with an ex-girlfriend because she was the mother of this daughter that he apparently had.

The tears were still on Chrissy’s face as Kade’s hazel eyes looked at her. He could feel his heart softening just the slightest bit. He hated to see people cry, and he most definitely hated to be the reason that they were crying. He often didn’t like to show that he had a heart, but there was one there, and tears always worked on it, even if it was just a little bit at a time. This time, however, his anger wasn’t allowing her tears to do much to his otherwise cold heart. Kade did have every right to be upset with her right now, and while he should have chosen another way to work this out with her besides an all out burst or rage, he couldn’t think rationally enough to chill out and just talk with her instead of yelling at her. But, that is what happens when Kade gets pushed to the limit so early in the morning. Kade took a brief glance to the side as campers were moving around them to either enter or leave Cyprus Hall. Their eyes wondered in the direction of Kade and Chrissy, them obviously able to feel the tension that was in the air between the two counselors, only they had no idea what had caused it. They could probably tell that Chrissy was crying, and Kade was pissed off for one reason or another. All of the campers kept moving, none of them dumb enough to stick around and suffer a verbal lashing from Kade. Smart campers. So, she said that she was sorry. Kade fought the urge to roll his eyes. Sorry had to be the stupidest word Kade had ever heard. It was cheap and generic, one he had heard one too many times from people who hadn’t meant it all. He didn’t believe in a word like sorry, and he would never use it himself. He found other ways to express his apologies. Sorry was just the easy way out.

Kade listened to her words carefully, eyes having since returned to her and not leaving for even a second. So, what he got out of all of that was that it really had been burning her on the inside, carrying such a secret around. But, obviously it wasn’t such a secret who the father of this child was, because her brother had wanted to track Kade down and kill him. Nice. Her father hadn’t been supportive, but her mother had. That was at least sort of good. Kade had always liked Chrissy’s parents, and it seemed that they thought the world of him. Wonder what they thought of him after they had learned that he was the sixteen-year-old boy, at that time, that got their daughter pregnant. Her own fears about how Kade would have taken the news of this pregnancy were what had stopped Chrissy from telling him about it back then, as Kade had pretty much figured for himself. Now, she was trying to push the blame of it off on him. That was even nicer of her, wasn’t it? What would he have said about it back then? ”Honestly, I probably would have been a lot nicer about it then,” Kade said, his voice with a definite edge of anger to it now. Kade didn‘t know what he would have said to her if she would have told him before she had left Seattle, but he knew that he wouldn‘t have been angry with her. How could he have been? He would have been scared with her, he would have shared in those uncertainties and doubts, but above all, he would have known that he had a child. It wouldn‘t be some big surprise to him three years later. ”But you don’t even know me anymore. And I don’t know you, but it’s your fault I don’t know that little girl in the picture, not mine. So, forgive me if I’m a little upset because I just found out that I have a daughter that her mother hid from me, okay?” Upset was putting it lightly. He was angry and confused, and just a little bit afraid of what this meant. Where did they go from here? As mentioned before, Kade couldn’t just go on and forget about this. Yeah, God had to have a twisted sense of humor this morning.

”I really don’t know what to do with this,” he said after a brief pause in his words. ”What in the hell am I supposed to do with it, Chris? What did you think was going to happen when you finally got the nerve to tell me?” So now he was being a little more harsh than what he should have been, but the words were out of his mouth before he had time to consider how hurtful they might be to her. At this point, though, he wasn’t so sure that he cared. No, he didn’t like to be the one that made a girl cry, but what about when they kind of deserved it? And it could be seen as unfair that Kade was expecting her to have all the answers, but she had to be thinking something when she had just blurted this out to him, didn’t she? Surely, over the last three years, she had thought about how this would go at least once or twice. What had she really expected to happen? For him to come back to her? That wasn’t going to happen. Not because of this secret being kept, but because Kade had moved on and he was this close to being with someone else. The feelings that had once been so strong inside of him for Chrissy were gone, a part of his past that had almost a zero percent chance of coming back to the present time. Did she want him to be a part of Kaydence’s life? Hell, did he want to be a part of her life? He didn’t know. After all, he had only just found out about this under five minutes ago. He was pretty much numb to the whole “I’m a father” thing at the moment. All that was there was anger and frustration.

ooc ;; not a problem.

[Chrissy Maddison]

What had happend to her life? She had once been a girl who was always trying to be happy go lucky, and everyone believed her little act. Ofcourse she wasnt really happy. I mean moving around all the time and stuff. Well atleast seh could put on a good act. She knew that there were times when her act wasnt really an act. She was a happy girl. She enjoyed cheerleading, and she enjoyed volleyball and dnace. She had fun in her middle/high school years. Well most of the time. She worked hard to keep her grades up, and she was great at making friends. She loved being around people and she was always a loud person. A girl who loved to party, and have fun. A girl who loved life. Then she got pregnant. When she got pregnant her world changed completely. People staired at her funny. She loved her little girl, but there were many things that she had hated when she was pregnant. She had morning sickness, and she hated. People thought that she was like bulemic or something when the truth was sh ewas pregnant. Kade would never understand what it was like when she was pregnant. He would never understand anything the way she did. Kade wasnt normally one to judge, but she knew that he was know. She knew that he was mad that she hadnt told him. She knew that he would be mad for a long time. She didnt know what she was thinking when she told him. She didnt know what she thinking when she didnt told him. You see, that was something that she did alot. She didnt use her head. It wasnt a good thing. She had to start using the head of hers. Yes, even though her hair color did define her very well, she was a pretty smart girl. She knew when things werent right, and she knew when she made a mistake. She blamed herself for everything that had happend. She didnt want Kaade to stay mad at her, because if he was mad at her it would affect Kaydence to. But what did she expect. Did she expect him to just step in and be her dad? She wasnt sure. She didnt know what she had ever expected of him. She didnt know at all. She just knew that she wanted tow ork things out with him.

She listend to him carefully. That was one thing she had always been able to do, she just didnt think much. She didnt think about what she was saying, so why did she think so much about what other people said. It was kinda weird. She knew that she couldnt blame this on him. She couldnt blame any of this on him, well some of it she could. Wait she couldnt. She couldnt blame him for getting her pregnant...could she. She didnt know. That year was kinda fuzzy. She knew that she hadnt been on the pill or whatever, but her getting pregnant waas both of their mistakes. She wipped her tears again. She was pretty certain that her mascara and eyeliner were running. There wasnt much she could do about that though. She gulped, trying to hold back tears. He was blaming her, and now she was blaming herself. Great. "I know its my fault Kade. I screwed up." she said to him. By now she was somewhat shaking. That happend to her alot when she cried.

She looked down at the grass. What did she want him to do. She wasnt sure. She wanted Kaydence to have a dad, but if he wanted to be an ass about it then maybe she didnt want him in Kaydence's life. She was so confused right now, she wasnt even thinking straight. She didnt know what to say. She wanted to say something, but nothing came out. I mean, what was there to say. She waas sorry, she didnt know. She had alreayd said that atleast once or twice. "I dont know Kade." she said to him. What was she supposed to do when Kaydence asked why all of her friends had a mommy and a daddy but she only had a mom. She didnt know. There were so many things that she didnt know what she would say when it confronted her. She didnt want to discuss this though infront of the campers. A small group of them had formed infront of them, acting like they were talking but really she figured they were trying to listen into them. "Can we go somewhere else Kade, please" she said to him. She knew that he wouldnt be happy with her request, but she hoped he would be ok with going somewhere else.

[kade trent.]

So many questions, not enough answers. Wasn’t that how it always seemed to be? Some questions came with simple answers, others didn’t have answers at all. That had the be the worst part of life, not knowing all the answers to the questions that you had. Some believed that people aren’t supposed to know all the answers, that it was just life and that we had to accept both what we did, and didn’t know. Yeah, yeah. Kade got that, but he still didn’t like it. There were so many questions running through his mind right now, and it seemed that neither he nor Chrissy seemed to have the answers to them. Well, he was sure that Chrissy would have the answers to some of the more random questions that Kade had come up. Like, when exactly had Chrissy found at she was pregnant? Why had she found it okay to tell her family who the father of this child was, but not the father himself? Had she ever considered aborting the baby? Not that Kade would have ever supported that, but it was among the questions that had entered his mind. Had Chrissy really chosen the girl’s name based on his name? When had little Kaydence been born? Those were all questions that could be answered if Kade would just cool off, take the time to ask them, and then listen to the answers. Other questions weren’t so easy to answer, like the one that came to him more often than the others. Where did they go from here? Where were they supposed to go from here, and where did they want to go? Maybe, in time, those questions would have answers too, but for right now Kade had no idea in hell what those answers might be on his end, at least, and he wasn’t so keen on exploring all the options at the moment. He was still wanting to get away and have some time to really process this new information for himself before he was bombarded with the rest of it.

”Can we go somewhere else Kade, please?” Kade knew why she was asking. A group of not so smart campers had decided to linger around the two counselors, pretending to go on with their own conversations and idle chatter while really listening to what was going on between Kade and Chrissy. This was one of those situations where curiosity could really kill the cat if the stupid cat wasn’t careful. Kade’s temper, while not very pleasant with Chrissy at the moment, could get a whole lot worse, and those idiotic campers were really pushing it. Why can’t people just leave them be? It had to be pretty obvious that something big was going down between them, and that they should be respected enough an given their space. But, it was because the campers knew that there was something happening here that they chose to linger. Whatever, they were still idiots in Kade’s mind. Back to Chrissy’s request, though. Where else could they go that they could really discuss this? It wasn’t like they could just go off and take all the time that they needed to work out their own problems. They were counselors. Therefore, they had other responsibilities, such as tending to the campers and getting on with the daily activities that the camp had planned out for everyday of the week. Here in a very short amount of time, campers would be filing out of Cyprus Hall, finding counselors and heading off to start their day off with some sort of one of these said activities. And Kade still didn’t have that damn schedule to tell him where he was supposed to be and what he was supposed to be doing to do. Wonderful. Just freaking wonderful. And as if on cue, the campers seemed to start to steadily flow out of the dinning hall, out into the camp and starting to head off to do whatever it was they were supposed to be doing. Kade could have held off on heading to wherever he was supposed to be and go with Chrissy for a half hour, at least, but he wasn’t in the mood to do that. Right now, he just wanted to go about doing what he had been doing before he had run into her, find out what mindless activity he was in charge of today, and get there. Maybe he would get lucky and be able to play some football with the guys. He felt like knocking some people around.

”You know what, you’ve waited three years, how about waiting a little longer?” he said, more harshly than what he should have. ”We can talk later, but right now, I have campers that I’m supposed to be tending to. Not dealing with shit like this.” Kade turned away from her then, making up his mind not to turn back this time if she did follow after him. Yeah, he can be a hard ass at times, and right now he was being more of a total ass than anything else, but that was just the way it rolled sometimes. Kade would definitely sit down and talk with Chrissy later, but right now would be no good. He was mad and bitter and upset and hurt and a whole bunch of other negative emotions all put into one. If he and Chrissy would discuss this now, all that would happen would be him getting more angry and upset, not cooling off and coming to a rational way of thinking. Hopefully, she would see that, respect it, and just leave him the hell alone for a day or so. When he was ready to talk, he would find her. He had made a good point with his first statement. She had made him wait this long. What would it hurt in him making her wait a little longer?