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Post by hunter townsend on Sept 16, 2007 14:14:07 GMT -5
Lay your head to rest, carry on my wayward son.
Hunter was a very opinionated person, and if he had something to say, you would bet that he’d say it. He seemed to be backing off on sharing everything tonight, like whatever he said could potentially ruin their friendship. He wanted to tell her how much he wanted to try, but with how quickly she’d changed the subject, and how briefly she’d dismissed it, he had the feeling it just wasn’t the time. He’d tell her when the time was right, but for now he had to pretend everything was normal, if that was even possible. He didn’t believe even the best actor could accomplish something like that in this type of situation. One single memory held him back, in fear of making history repeat itself.
ONE YEAR BEFORE: The night settled over him like a bag of bricks, and he could feel every drink that he’d consumed. It was one of the best benefit parties his father had ever thrown, because everyone was back together again. Christian had his girlfriend there, who he’d confessed his feelings to the day they’d left England those few years ago. Her little boy was walking circles around the entire party, socializing with everyone. He was exactly two years old, a bright baby who had immediately taken a liking to both Townsend brothers. He’d been the product of the girl’s previous boyfriend, who hadn’t taken no for an answer when it came to a physical relationship. So, according to hid brother’s new girlfriend, the guy raped her. The toddler was sweet, and had every trait an Evans’ child could get. The other Evans sister had taken to tagging along with Hunter and his friends, including Jessica. Blake Evans was like a sister to Hunter, he’d grown up with her, and their parents knew one another before birth. She had had the house next to his, and she was his best friend up until the day after that very party. The Evans family had come to America to visit, catch up with everyone back this way.
Hunter had always liked the girl for something more than just a friend, a lot like he felt with Jessica. Blake had felt something for him too, maybe a little more physical that night than anything. The people she hung out with were definitely pros when it came to ‘no strings attached’ relationships, and she couldn’t help but want to rid her conscience of the thought that she was the only one still a virgin. It wasn’t like she and Hunter hadn’t talked about it before, joking about real life fantasies, and who they’d want to be their first. Well, Blake had always wanted it to be him, not that she’d ever tell him that, though. She trusted him, and valued his sweet side of things. She wanted tonight to be that night, but there were three problems that really stood in the way; one, how was she going to get her best friend to sleep with her? Two, how was she going to get him away from the rest of the gang? And three, she was nothing but a big bundle of nerves, how would she get herself to go through with it?
Hunter could remember every single second of the night, despite the fact that he was extremely drunk. Blake had been smart enough to keep feeding him wine, not the cheap stuff that the party provided, but from the bottles her parents had brought from France, the alcohol that always seemed to just send him over the edge. The next step was to slowly pull him away from the group of friends, who didn’t seem to be catching on, but who knew. As if on cue, her cell phone rang, and after taking the call, she’d made up some fake excuse of having to pick up some things for the party. So, she’d oh so conveniently asked Hunter to come along. Instead of heading to the store like planned, she’d ended up taking him back to the Townsend house. After hemming and hawing on her part, she’d managed to push every doubt aside, and the night had slowly unfolded into exactly what she planned. She was no longer one of those girls who only listened when people told their famous hotel room stories, she had one of her own… And that one happened to be with Hunter Townsend. She hadn’t expected him to be angry, but he had been, confused to why she’d wanted such a thing. He’d gotten over it, and they’d tried the whole relationship thing, but he’d never truly trusted her again, and it ended.
PRESENT: Once his thoughts returned, he sighed. He didn’t want things to end like that with he and Jessica, but they’d never know until they tried. And plus, neither of them would do something like that. He talked to Blake every now and then, but their relationship wasn’t anything like it had once been. The blonde glanced up to see her swimming back toward him, and then she spoke. So, she obviously hadn’t totally given up on the possibility. Relief flooded through him, and he allowed himself to smile a small smile. “I don’t know,” He said, soon regretting it. He did know what he wanted, he was just afraid of saying it. Her next couple strands of words vaguely reminded him of Blake, the whole situation. It just couldn’t end like that he wouldn’t let it. “I don’t know what to do,” He repeated bluntly, feeling like he was letting both of them down. She really did feel something toward him, and he felt something toward her, he just didn’t know how to approach the whole concept. “And I feel the same… I just…” He exhaled deeply, turning away from her and running his fingers through his hair. He couldn’t do it.
(( ohohsee;; I think I've got some kind of mini plot in mind, I'll PM you it. ))
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Post by Jessica Milano on Sept 16, 2007 22:36:37 GMT -5
Again my hope is crushed, knocked back down on my knees back down where I was Lost and Gone. Is that where I belong?Jessica has never been in love before, she doesn't know how does it feel, she doesn't know if it is that weird feeling in her stomach, she doesn't know if it means that her heart should tremble every time she looked at Hunter, she doesn't know if this is how love supposed to work or happen, her heart pounding like crazy, her eyes longing for him, her lips longing for his kisses, is it love? Jessica honestly doesn't know if it is. She has never felt this way before not with anybody. Jessica knew that she had a crush on Hunter once, but she didn't know that this crush could turn into something more, something she's experiencing right now, something that she have never thought it would turn to and wasn't sure if she wanted it to turn into love. Not in her wildest dreams have she ever thought that her crush could turn into something that big, she could've hidden her crush, but love was a whole other world and Jessica wasn't sure she could hide it like she did with her crush. Hunter has awakened many feelings in her, feelings she didn't know that it is within her before, she didn't know if she was ready but that's something she's gonna know with time.
Jessica looked at Hunter, he was deeply drowned in his thoughts, Jessica wanted an answer, and it wasn't that hard, was it? She knew what she wanted but it's whether she should go through with it or not was the thing that confused her the most; She made it clear the first time she was welling to give it a try but Hunter hesitated which made her back off, and she wanted things to be normal with them that's why she tried to get him out of that mood, but it seems like things were already heading down to an awkward path. Is it gonna be normal again? That's the thing that Jessica didn't know… Jessica was welling to give Hunter the chance to think about this, she was welling to wait but till when really?
Jessica sighed looking at him returning his smile with one of her sweet smiles; she raised her eyebrow at his "I don’t know."" answer, it wasn't the thing that she wanted to hear, is it difficult of him to say what he wants, Jessica thought. Jessica have already told him more than she wanted, she doesn't wanna look like she's desperate, she have never did that with any guy before, she wasn't that type of girl who would actually tell the guy she was crushing over that she is, Jessica was the one who got approached to not the other way around, but with Hunter it was different, however she's not gonna reveal anything more until he does. She was also afraid, afraid of where this might end, afraid of losing him, afraid of this weird feeling that was growing inside of her. "Would you like to elaborate? I mean do you know anything?" Jessica said as she clinched her jaws. "You know what Hunter, I don't want an answer, because I don’t know either and since both of us obviously we have something here but we're not sure how to deal with it so I guess it's un fair to answer questions now, I think we need a little more time." Jessica said smiling, part of her was sad that things were getting awkward and that she said that but also part of her was convinced that this is the right thing. Jessica felt like kissing him again, the kiss awakened something inside of her, feelings she didn't even know existed but now wasn't the time to think about it, they need time and another kiss was just going to make things more awkward. "So what do you think, am I right…" Jessica said raising her eyebrow again, "As you know am always right, but what do you think about it right now?" Jessica said faking a cheerful voice, she wasn't happy about it but she's gonna act like she is, Hunter said that he felt the same so that was a start, even of it was kinda vague but still there's hope.
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Post by hunter townsend on Sept 17, 2007 18:12:12 GMT -5
Lost in the game of life.
Had he really said that? Words spoken with such scent of lies staining his lips, burning her ears, had he said it? He had. Hunter knew she couldn’t tell, he never lied, but he just did. It was the words itself, and the fact that he was completely feeling the opposite; he had lied, and that was unacceptable. He did know what he wanted, but the simple fear of hurting her, or whatever it was had stopped him. He’d never been with a girl he’d actually liked, except for a choice few, but usually they were just numerous strings of nothing but one night stands and the friends with benefits type thing. Hunter was good on his own, without having to fall at the beck and call of a girlfriend, he found himself able to just live his life. Perhaps he was ready for some type of commitment, something more than he’d ever had. Relationships tended not to last more than a couple weeks with him, because he usually didn’t put in the effort. The drive just hadn’t been there, he had lost all interest. So, he held himself back.
His muscles tensed as he sensed her anger rise, or maybe just plain frustration with him. No one ever said he was an easy guy to get along with, or get to listen when you talked, Jessica just happened to have some kind of way with him. Exhaling noisily, he placed a hand at the back of his neck, but within a moment it fell back beside him. He felt her frustration, he was angry with himself, but at the same time he knew he was saving something, even there was no need for saving. “Do I really need to continue?” He paused, taking a breath to keep himself in check. “I just need some time to think it over or something… I don’t know,” He said, forcing himself to turn to face her, prepared to answer her last question. What did he know? “I know a lot of things, just not this,” He mumbled, letting himself turn away from her again, mentally hitting himself for saying such a stupid comment, even though she probably hadn’t heard him. Everything was just so damn complicated, exactly how he didn’t want it to be.
The blonde faced her again, just in time to catch the smile as she finished speaking. Why was she smiling? It wasn’t exactly the best thing in the world right now; there wasn’t a reason to be happy. “Time,” He repeated, a slight nod given. “I think so too,” He replied, giving another nod just to be sure. Now he knew what he wanted to do, find himself something to drink, preferably a strong alcohol. He just couldn’t handle this, not right now. He had to think it over, give himself some time to really know that it was what he wanted. If not, then they’d go back to being friends, or at least hopefully. For now, he’d drown everything down with a drink, maybe join the guys in their latest fad; tequila shots. They’d get him smashed pretty fast, which sounded perfect for the moment. Hunter was just that kind of guy, give him something to think about, and he’d choke it down with a drink. Or maybe it wasn’t just a thought that sent him over the edge, it was the prospect of losing another person he really cared about.
“Yeah, you’re right,” He agreed, faking a smile, not as bright as it had been, but it was still there. The wind picked up slightly, sending chills through him, this time from the wind on his bare skin, not the funny feelings he kept getting whenever they touched. Glancing toward the brunette, he sighed. “So, did you want me to walk you back, or what? It’d getting kind of cold,” He asked, beginning to wade out of the water, which honestly didn’t feel all that warm anymore. He was growing antsy, and anyone that really knew him knew that he needed a drink, and that was the first thing he’d be getting once they got back.
ooc: this sucks, muse kinda died.
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Post by Jessica Milano on Sept 17, 2007 22:10:01 GMT -5
It's getting late and dark outside I just need to be with myself right now!Although Jessica was hurt, she wasn't going to show it, she can't do that, Hunter is still her friend and if she showed him how hurt she is he's gonna blame himself for it and she don’t want for this to happen, even if Hunter didn't say what she wanted to hear and even though she was hurt, Hunter is still her friend and if she doesn't want this awkward silence or for them to start acting weird when they're together then she can't show him that she's hurt… Jessica always counted her steps, she always make sure of her decision and her actions before doing in; in order not to regret it later. And when she thought about the kiss the one that lead into this whole mess, she knew that she shouldn't have kissed him. It was her fault that this is happening not his; it's obvious that he's not ready. Jessica did regret it, she shouldn't have done that, it kinda happened out of the bloom, it's not like she was planning on kissing him when she woke up this morning, and it was something of the moment.
Jessica sensed Hunter's anger, she knew him, that look in his eyes, the way his muscles tensed, she wished she could make it easier on both of them, but what is done is done, she was frustrated with herself for opening such a discussion, who was she kidding? It must be the stupidest things she has ever done in her life, as it was obviously going to ruin their friendship, or so it seems, things were getting weird between them by the minute. "No you don't need to continue, take your time…" Jessica said as she frowned when he turned his back… Jessica wanted to go back to her cabin, she thought that this was so much for her, she have never felt so rejected in her life yet somehow it was her fault… Jessica ran her finger through the water ripples as the wind picked up slightly… She looked at him once again, she nodded, "Yeah It will be getting cold…" Jessica wasn’t sure if she was implying to the weather or to them and their relationship, either ways she just wanted to go and be alone right now, she need to think, she needs time alone… Maybe avoiding Hunter for the next few days although that was a hard thing, she can't imagine not having him around teasing her and talk with her and just be her friend, however maybe they need to be apart and think about this seriously, she won't lose Hunter, Jessica promised herself, even if they needed some time alone or apart, they'll always be there for each other and things will get back to normal eventually, or at least that's what Jessica thought.
Jessica looked back at Hunter as he faced her again, "shall we go…" Jessica said as she waited for him to get out of water and did the same as well, her eyes wandered to where her clothes were and she started getting dressed; as she finished Jessica shivered, she wished she brought a jacket with her, she knew that nights got cold here and being in the water with the wind she hadn't even bothered to bring one with her when she thought about sneaking out. She turned to look at Hunter again, Jessica couldn't bare the awkward silence that fell upon them, she wanted him to be Hunter and act like himself again, she wanted also to be herself around him, she thought about how would it be if she didn't kiss him or if they didn't talk about the whole thing, it would've been different that’s for sure. "So you're ready to go back?" Jessica said as a sigh escaped her mouth.
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Post by hunter townsend on Sept 18, 2007 14:40:55 GMT -5
I hope I'm not paralyzed.
Hunter wanted the night to end, chase everything down with some drinks, and just be careless again. He’d been keeping himself in check, dwindling down on every bad habit he’d had, but that was gone. Perhaps he’d take everything back up, besides the whole cigarette thing, of course. A promise was a promise, and even the worst side of Hunter obeyed that. It would be good to get back out there again, even though he knew he was doing this all to forget what had happened tonight. For a moment it would all be all right again, and he’d force himself to believe that everything was normal, considering the fact that he knew it wasn’t. Alcohol and… Some other things could really make a person forget, and perhaps heal at least that part of the story. Everything was messed up, and he knew that, he just didn’t want it to be, and sometimes it was good to pretend. He figured he’d think about it, give himself time to process everything and figure out what he really wanted, even though he might already know.
It wasn’t that he was mad or frustrated he was just confused. Was it that he didn’t want to give up everything he already lived for? It simply couldn’t be that, because she didn’t want him to change, but the bad part was that he had. He’d slowed down on drinking ever since they’d really been good friends, but since that seemed like it would never be the same, he could go back to that old life, couldn’t he? Part of him wanted to, run back to everything he’d once been, that guy that never wanted to be in any kind of relationship, just friends with benefits and one night stands. That’s what he wanted, he didn’t want commitment, but now that he knew Jessica’s feelings on the matter, he didn’t know what he wanted. Sure, he’d give up everything for her, and he would… It was just a matter of some time. Even though they were taking some time apart, he figured they should at least still try and make things normal, but the chances of that were pretty slim. He nodded lightly, goose bumps forming on his skin, the wind chilling him thoroughly. He wanted to escape from all this, that little voice inside him telling him to run. It was screaming now, bellowing the pros and cons to the situation, but the blonde paid no attention. He could feel himself slowly slipping; falling into the dark hole he’d once been in, swimming in a pool of blackness. The first thought came to mind, and all his body was telling him was; here we go again.
Hunter stepped from the water, inhaling sharply at how cold it really was. He didn’t care to the fact that he was still wet from being in the water, he just pulled on his clothing, trying to insure enough warmth to keep from shivering. Pulling the t-shirt over his head, the material stuck to his damp skin, following suit and pulling on his jeans. His body and clothing would dry before they got back, so suspicion wouldn’t be a problem. Plus, he wouldn’t be going back to the cabin anyway, but maybe he would just to change. He shivered slightly in the wind, preparing to pull the sweatshirt he’d brought over his head. It was one of his favorite sweatshirts, the one he wore most of the time. Partly because it had been his brother to give it to him, but the other part being that it was the most comfortable, the material a soft English cotton. Glancing toward Jessica, he noticed her shiver, drawing back for a moment. Still the same old Hunter, he smiled a half smile, handing it off to her. “Here,” He said to catch her attention, knowing it would be a little big, but at least it was something. She’d need it more than he anyway. He nodded, prepared for the walk back. “All set,” He responded, beginning to walk beside her.
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Post by Jessica Milano on Sept 18, 2007 18:29:42 GMT -5
I'm Standing here with this blank expression, And The Way I Feel, I Wanna Curl Up Like A Child."What girl would I be if I took it, I can't get all warm and leave you like this, you're gonna get a cold… plus when we walk it'll get warm I think…" Jessica said smiling at him. She shivered again after pulling her hands up to give him back the shirt; she pulled her hands back "You know on a second thought I think that I should really have it since you know, you're the "guy"" Jessica said innocently with a sweet smile… After wearing the shirt that he gave her, she was beginning to feel a little warmer, the scent of his perfume filled her nostrils a small sigh escaped her mouth… She looked back at him and made a model pose "So how do you think I look like." her smile widened as she started striking some model poses and giggled. Jessica felt that maybe it was too early to joke but if she ever wants her relationship with Hunter to get back to normal then this is what she needs to do, she needs to start acting normal again whenever she's with him.
As they began to walk, Jessica was a little bit irritated, she wanted him to act normal, she thought about talking about it, what will happen now, are they going to stop being friends and start acting formally whenever they're around each other or what exactly? Silence surrounded them, no one talked, and you could only here their foot steps and the wind whistling… "Hunter…are you okay?" Jessica said, "Oh my god, this is so stupid how did I say this, it's beyond idiotic." Jessica thought and she quickly tried to change the subject into something else, "So what are you going to do when you get back?" Jessica said as she took a quick glance at her watch trying to avoid his look; whenever Jessica talks and start a conversation she look in the eyes of the person, but after what happened now, she was trying to avoid looking into his eyes. Jessica knew what she wanted to do, she wanted to go and be alone right now, she wanted to think about what happened tonight, she wanted to go and curl up in her bed. OOC – Sorry this is like so short but my muse died literally…
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Post by hunter townsend on Sept 18, 2007 19:32:45 GMT -5
You're not livin' till your livin'.
Hunter sighed almost contently, typical Jessica to refuse generosity, the thought comforting him thinking maybe things would be normal. “Seriously, take it,” He replied, allowing the smile to widen slightly. Despite the stiffness between them, he could manage at least that. The blonde boy didn’t want to see her cold, and plus, once they’d get to walking he’d be warm in a matter of moments. Her next comment caused him to give a light laugh, not the same as it normally would, but it was again there. He owed at least that much to her, and plus, if he put in the effort too, things might not be so awkward. Nodding happily, he watched her pull the sweatshirt over her head; glad she’d taken it. He glanced back toward her at her modeling stances, smiling still. “It’s a bit big, but it works for you,” He commented, normally able to add in a slight tease, but that would only come with time. It was never too early to joke, because it seemed to have lifted the mood a little.
He could sense her irritation, trying his best to ignore it, just because he didn’t want it to be there. He wanted things to be just as normal as she wanted them, but judging by the looks of it, they were never going to be completely normal. Sighing, he inhaled deeply, catching the familiar scent of his sweatshirt; a mixture of French cologne, Italian aftershave, and then the normal Hunter… Whatever that was.
Her words surprised him, but the reaction didn’t show across his features. A light nod was given as he glanced in her direction, avoiding her gaze though. “Yeah, I’m fine,” He responded, another sigh escaping his lips. It probably hadn’t been the best time for that question, but whatever, he wasn’t just going to ignore her. She immediately changed the subject, thankfully. A slight shrug was given to her next question, pondering on whether or not he was going to tell her the truth. “Probably just see what the guys are up to, or something,” He said somewhat truthfully, hating the fact that he was half lying to her. He knew she liked to know when he was drinking and such, but tonight he didn’t feel obligated to tell her that, she’d probably worry, and that was the last thing he needed. “How about you?”
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Post by Jessica Milano on Sept 18, 2007 22:20:11 GMT -5
For if dreams die, Life is a broken-winged bird That cannot fly... [/size] With a light breeze blowing Jessica's brown hair, it was being blown around slightly; she flipped her hair as they walked catching the smile on his face, So things weren't going to be normal between them in the near future but that's a start, isn’t it? Jessica inhaled the crisp air slightly moist from the previous day's rain, Jessica loved the rain, she liked walking in the rain and that what she did when it rained, everyone thinks that she's crazy when it comes to this little thing that she loved to do, but she couldn't help it, she just liked to walk in the rain, and although that when it rained yesterday it wasn't cold or anything it just did, Jessica also loved the days after the rain; they were always a lot nicer and the air was crisp and enjoyable, however thinking about it now Jessica at such a situation wasn't enjoying that weather much, she have more important things running through her mind, something more important than rain, and the days following the rain.
"What the guys are up to, hmm I see, well have fun at that." Jessica said sarcastically raising her eyebrows at him, she decided not to say anything more, it's up to him really even though it was getting late and she didn't like the idea of him hanging around with the rest of his friends, because if he did he's gonna drink, the guys at the Yellowstone cabin didn't have time to waste they always have drinks wherever they go and looking at Hunter she knew that he'd be drinking, Hunter tended to merge himself in drinking to forget or whenever something happens, and what happened today wasn't any different, he was going to drink, because as much as she hates to admit it given the same chance she would do the same…
Jessica felt that everything was already ruined she wished that she listened when her friend at the same cabin warned her about sneaking out, she didn't warn her because she was going to sneak out with Hunter but because she was afraid that Jessica will get caught, well if only Jessica listened, she'd rather get caught and be sent home then to lose Hunter. Jessica wanted to talk to someone, she wanted someone who'll understand, the first name that came into her mind was Wyatt, but Wyatt won't be so happy about this, he's gonna go and get himself into troubles with Hunter and that's the last things that she needs, so no way she was telling Wyatt about what happened, he's be so pissed thinking that Hunter hurt her or something, no she can't tell him, she needs someone to talk to that doesn't know Hunter that much or her for that matter… Jessica took a quick glance at him and then here eyes focused on the path again. "I'll probably go to sleep, am so tired right now, I'll probably sleep like a baby…" Jessica said and continued walking silently not knowing what to say else…[/center]
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Post by hunter townsend on Sept 19, 2007 19:46:15 GMT -5
The world spins around me, and I'm standing still.
Everything was so quiet, all too silent for Hunter’s taste. A lively conversation would have pleased him, made him grin, possibly even laugh, and that’s what he wanted, but it wasn’t what was coming from the two. You could sense the damage in everything, and that made him frown deeply. He could already taste the hangover he was going to have tomorrow, nursing Advil and a bunch of water to get rid of the headache. However, if he forced himself to stick with beer or something neutral, that wouldn’t happen, maybe that was the better route to go. The blonde sighed, not at all content with the wind’s breeze, and the cool air stinging his dampened skin, that just wasn’t enough. Sometimes you just had to make yourself feel, and that was by depriving yourself of what you wanted most. He knew he wanted it all, and if that meant commitment, then so be it, but he didn’t know if that was what he wanted right now. Matter of fact, he didn’t know anything at the moment, his mind freezing to the outside world. The blonde just focused straight ahead, ever so often his eyes straying off the path, eyeing the stars or tracing the darkness.
Hunter was tempted to roll his eyes at her comment, but was glad when she didn’t continue into her thoughts about the matter. So, he wanted to have a couple drinks… And then have a couple more, but that didn’t mean anything. “I’m sure I will,” He said, shrugging his shoulders. The boy felt quite energetic, actually, normally feeling pretty run down after the small amount of sleep he was running on. It was getting pretty late, and he knew that, but it wasn’t going to stop him tonight. He had both energy and frustration to release, and there wasn’t much time to waste. Hunter knew he shouldn’t be winding back down that road, knowing that within a matter of time he’d be getting back into the ‘addiction’, drowning all his worries and pain with each drink he took from the familiar bottles. He hadn’t asked for it, it just came that way, and he was forced to deal with it. It was like a monster tempting him further into the darkness, waving a child’s favorite toy in his face, and he willingly followed. Hunter never wanted this life, he hadn’t wanted the crazy teenage emotions, or the drinking addiction, or the obsessive anger issue, he had wanted to be normal… But not everyone could be.
Within a matter of moments the trail came to an end, and he hadn’t realized how much time they’d spent in utter silence, just sort of staring off into space, waiting for the other to speak. Pretty soon the gravel trail widened into a stone like pathway, and then they were out in the open again. The moon shone brightly in the wide space, the moisture on the grass glistening. Off in the distance he could see the cabins, all lights turned off, though any wise camper knew that most people were up and about. Well, at least the Yellowstone boys were, and maybe the Sequoia girls, who usually tagged along with wherever the usual party boys went. That same feeling was running through his veins, and he was extremely eager to get the first drink down, and then a couple more, but they had a little walk to go. The boy kept his composure, and listened to his friend while she talked. He nodded lightly, deciding it would only be polite to ask if she wanted to come, because it was normal for him to ask. “You can come if you want,” He suggested, another shrug given. He really had no problem with it, wither way all his problems were going to be dealt with, with or without her.
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Post by Jessica Milano on Sept 19, 2007 23:17:40 GMT -5
Goodnight, they said as they parted... It is really going to be good knowing what happened and fearing the unclear future! [/size] So is this what Jessica wanted, of course not, she didn't want them to walk in silence, as a matter of fact she hated silence, specially the uncomfortable one… Jessica wanted to say so many things before they part and everyone goes to mind his own business, she have so much in her mind, so much that she wanted to tell him, but it wasn't neither the good time nor the right one for that matter… Jessica decided to remain silent, maybe he'd start a talk or something but he didn't, and as they got closer to their cabins Jessica knew that they neither of them was going to say anything right now, can they go back to the way they were? Well, that's a question that Jessica really wanted to know the answer for…
Jessica saw his frown but didn't react to it, she knew that Hunter would be thinking, just like her, there's no way that he's not, Whenever Hunter is quite for long then he'd be thinking about something, specially with that frown, Jessica knew that he must be thinking about what happened or he was just wondering like her what will happen in the near future… Jessica decided not to think about it anymore and just go with the flow, can she manage and keep her feelings for Hunter hidden inside of her, she managed to keep it once so why this time it's different, is it because she realized that it's not that stupid crush anymore and that it's beyond an innocent crush! Jessica realized that it's too late now to keep her feelings for him hidden, he already knows how she feels about him, and she knows how he feels about her, but only time can tell whether those two will have a future or what will happen with them.
Jessica sighed when they reached the cabins, everything looked so peaceful and quite, Jessica knew that somewhere just like Hunter and Jessica did, campers were sneaking out, hanging around and even partying, Jessica did go to one or two parties since she got here this summer, so she knows that underneath this calm look everyone was having fun or at least trying to have fun. Jessica wanted to go to her cabin and see what is she messing there, it's true that the Yosemite girls doesn't go to parties often but that doesn't mean that they're sleeping also, so she decided to go inside and see what were they doing. "No, I told you am kinda tired and I'll probably go to sleep, you have fun though." Jessica said to Hunter… She didn't want to hang around with him any longer, she had enough for one night, plus she wanted him to have sometime alone to think about the whole thing or just be alone without her being around to confuse him. "I'll see you tomorrow…" Jessica said as she started walking towards her cabin, in any other day before that day Jessica would never left him like that, she'd probably give him a kiss on his cheeks or a hug but this time it was just plainly weird, plus if she touched him now or got to close tension was going to be formed around them and that something that she didn’t want to happen. Before going inside she turned away at his direction and smiled sweetly as she waved… "Nighty party boy."[/center]
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